
I have so much to blog about that I have been putting off... I suppose it's a mixture of being both lazy and busy. Tonight, however, I've been inspired to write about something I haven't thought about for awhile. I was rummaging through old files and I came across my journal from our dating days.
This particular journal dated back to January 3, 2004. It's amazing how journals take you back... Take you back to small details such as feelings, smells, people... everything. The journal ended with entries from my dating days with Marc. We had our ups and downs like every couple... But one thing that remained constant which I never, nor have I ever, wavered on is my love for him. This diary is filled with such simple, small details from years gone by that have meant so much to me.
4-1-06
"General Conference was today. I went to the morning session and sat with Marc. I walked in, sat down, and he looked over and said, "I love you so much!"
4-2-06
"I've learned through all of this that we each have to have a personal relationship with the Lord. There was a talk about that today... "Come onto the Lord." He is what brings everlasting happiness."
5-3-06
"I want to make the most of my life. I want to look back in 10 years and realize how much I've grown. Relationships are hard, but Marc is incredible. Heavenly Father has truly blessed me. I love him so much. Though it is hard being on my own, I've learned so much. I've laughed, cried, loved and lost. I want to marry Marc... To have a family with him."
7-20-06
"I have no idea why I even got so mad. But I did... and I said things that hurt Marc's feelings and I walked out. When I came back Marc had cleaned my apartment (something that I was stressing about) and left this note with a rose. He then made me dinner. He's so amazing. I asked him why he had done such nice things when I had hurt his feelings? I said, "Did you do all these things because I was mad at you"? He said, "No... I just knew it would make you happy."
8-24-06
"I have been feeling inadequate lately. I talk to Marc about it and he really helps. Today when I left work I found this note on my car:
Hey! I thought you'd like this. It's from Stand a Little Taller. President Hinckley- "I feel to invite every woman everywhere to rise to the great potential within you. I do not ask that you reach beyond your capacity. I hope you will not nag yourselves with thoughts of failure. I hope you will not try to set goals far beyond your capacity to achieve. I hope you will simply do what you can do in the best way you know. If you do so, you will witness miracles come to pass." I hope this beings comfort. I love you! Love, Marc."
I also found stuff from our wedding/honeymoon. I found Marc's old mission temple recommend, our endowment name tags, ticket stubs from the Rangers game, stubs from the Fort Worth Zoo, the trolley passes we used to get to/from six flags... I also found Dove candy wrappers that have little sayings on the inside that we ate. My favorite? "Dare to love completely." Amen!
I realized we've learned and grown so much. Those dating days will live in my memory forever. But we still have an eternity to come. We have a family to start and more than a lifetime with each other. These are the days we will look back on. I'm so grateful for Heavenly Father. I'm grateful for my amazing husband who just seems to "get" me, and I'm grateful for the knowledge I have of the Restored Gospel. True happiness.